This is a letter to my 15 yo self.

Confidence is subjective and temporal, or should I say - fleeting. 

When I was 15 years old, I was insecure and self-conscious. That's like the worse combination to have at the same time. I think lack of confidence is the cause of these two characters. And it sucks that women don't gather often enough to talk about shitty things like insecurities. And because of that, girl like myself tend to feel that you're the only one feeling this way, but it's not. It's really not. 


So to my 15 yo self, I'm going to start by saying, it's okay to feel defeated, it's okay to feel like you couldn't trust anyone and it's definitely okay to be emotional and cry about what seems like peanuts to others.

Whatever hurtful words that those girls had said about you before, is okay to feel hurt and cry about it. It really doesn't matter what they say, but in due time, you will thank them for making you stronger. It's going to be a long journey before you know yourself enough to be comfortable in your own skin but this journey is going to be worth it. 

Puberty is a bitch. Yas. But that's going to be another important lesson to know that what defines you is not those pimples but it's the way you treat yourself and others that defines the person you are. Ten years down the road, you're still going to have skin issues but you would have already graduate from the class of being uber comfortable in your own skin! Praise God!

You've always been a sharer of your life and you will continue to do that. Good or bad, there's always virtue in talking about your feelings and your current state of mind. It's going to be a tool that centers you 10 years down the road. 

Also! Friendship. My goodness, friendships has never been your strong suit. Just know that friends come and goes and it's nobody's fault. Time grow people apart and yet time also bonds people stronger together. So if you felt like you lost a friend, cheer up! If only you could look into the future, you will be so in awe with the friendships that's surrounding you right now. 

Life's gonna be great. You can't see it, you can't feel it but doesn't mean God hasn't made a plan for you to enjoy life. Just be patient. 

Don't be too impatient to grow up, get things over and done with right now. Learn to enjoy the present, even if it's honestly difficult to enjoy studying. Even at 26 this year, I still have to remind myself that there are just some things that we have to go through the motion with. The purpose of the journey may not be apparent but it will come to you in time. 

Your teenage years is possibly the period of your life where you have the most time! So spend your time wisely, ask yourself what is most important right now and work from there. 


Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1 

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.
Hebrews 11:1

If you only believe in the things you can see and hold on to, then you wouldn't need faith. 
In NLT, it says, faith is the confidence we have for the things that will actually happen. 
Faith is the quiet confidence that these chains of insecurities will be broken and I'll be set free. 

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