Thursday, December 31, 2015

End of 2015


I'm really not quite sure how I could expressed how 2015 has been for me, so I thought you could read the thoughts I have while 2015 was still happening. (of those that I could remember distinctly of course) 

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"At one point, I felt like I was so sure of 2015 and what I'm going to do with my life... Then, I realised perhaps I've got nothing figured out yet." 

"Leaving XXX was the best decision I ever made in 2015." 

"When I was still studying, I thought I'd be the kind who'd be god-damn serious about having a corporate career and climbing the "corporate ladder". But I realised, that's obviously not for everyone."

"I know there are people at work you would pay to punch and kick them. But I also know when you are at the right place and time, there are people you would missed despite working with them just for that couple of months. Truth be told, I started to miss my awesome managers when I said my goodbyes." 

"I still don't do well with 'hey how are you?', small talks and really just socialising." 

"Jasper is/will be my best companion/life partner even though he can be super annoying at times." 


"I'm honestly not sure where I'm at with starting my own business. I don't feel like I failed after the first experience but I feel like I learnt and so, what next?" 

"After leaving for my recent job, I'm happier. Okay, whose not happier when everyday is like a public holiday. Even though I may not have a supposedly fulfilling job that I could wake up at 6.30am to get ready, leave the house and be back home by 8pm, I felt like my life couldn't be better."


"Recently, I started to focus on the things I love to do. Documenting moments, capturing memories and sharing them."



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Tuesday, December 29, 2015

What's in my travel makeup bag | Taipei Edition


This is a super casual 'what's in my makeup bag' video that I filmed while I was staying in Taichung. Hope you enjoyed watching. 

Fret not, I'll be writing really soon instead of posting my videos up! 

See you in a bit alright! <3

Friday, December 25, 2015


Worked on the Taipei travelogue the entire Friday afternoon. I'm honestly still feel slightly lethargic. But nonetheless, I enjoyed editing the video clips! Hope you guys enjoyed watching too! 

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Grey | Losing Momentum




15 December 2015, 10.44pm

More often than not, I feel slightly guilty whenever I open up the Blogger website. It has honestly been a case of "you have so many excuses not to blog". I felt like my heart was everywhere in the beginning of the year. And when I felt like, "okay, I think I got this. I know where this is going..." Then only to realise that I probably haven't got much figured out yet right now. 

It is kind of discouraging when you have that expectation that you want to live up to and really, when reality appear before you, you stumble a little and question your being. 

Recently, someone asked me about my 3-year plan and my 5-year plan. I paused for a while to think about it. I went silent for a little bit. Well, first of all, the question caught me off-guard. I wasn't expecting such a question. Second of all, even if I had known that she was going to ask me the same question, I would have paused just as long to think about it. 

I prefer living in the moment rather than living for the future. (yes, irresponsible I know my dear look-young-forever older sister.) People do certain things now for a better future, for the commitments they have, for knowing it would benefit them in the long run. For so many reasons.  I want to do the things I do now because I want to. (irresponsible) Because that's how I feel right now.  (tsk tsk) Because I want feel like there's nothing else I'd rather do and nowhere I want to be except here. Now. (okay fine. i give up)

I'm not quite near "Now". Are you?



Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Lookbook | Effortless & Comfy


Just like the backdrop of my photo, mood these days has been more than just a little grey. Of course, there's always funny and happy moments with Jasper, my family and friends. But some part of me just couldn't seem to pick up the positivity and hang on to it. 

Last two weeks went by in a blur. Again, November went by just as quickly as October. Time never seems to be enough nowadays. I've been prepping myself all these while for the impending trip on Friday. I'm honestly excited yet real worried at the same time and that's because I really don't know what to expect from the trip. So I've been preoccupied and haven't really got much mood to go out and take photos or dress up. 

Anyways, this dress came by by door a LITTLE tad too late, later than it's supposed to. I know shipping from overseas has its risks and last minute issues, but I'm still need that if you promised a certain time frame for delivery, you have to uphold that promise. Otherwise, what's the point. That's just disappointing considering that it's such a high street brand. 


To be honest, I really don't mind going to breakfast/lunch/dinner/sleep/go anywhere in this dress. If there's such thing called comfort dress (like comfort food), this would be it. It fits nicely enough to show off a little curve and at the same time, loose enough to binge eat at a buffet. It's that kind of dress. 



Always gonna be shots like these...




Wednesday, November 11, 2015

5 things I learnt about the corporate world

Time Check: Wednesday, 11th November 2015, 8.45pm

When I was much younger, I really loved writing journal submissions in school, even the times where  we had to write reflections in Chinese as part of our weekly assignments. I like that it makes you sit back and go through what you did during the day/what you have been doing and pen down what you felt and what you were thinking. 

I honestly haven't been working in the corporate world for that long. It's almost insignificant as compared to my sister's career (the only person I can compare to in my family). But nonetheless, I had so many reflections and learning from the experience. 

So let me start. 

1. Never make assumption

I was 19 years old when I got my first office job. I took a gap year after I graduated from poly and I was excited yet nervous about having to work with older people. At that time, I have no idea how corporates work. So this was the first lesson I ever learnt. In short, I made a mistake by making an assumption that my supervisor would want me to do a certain thing this way. But clearly, I was wrong and I said something like, "oh I thought you want me to..." and she replied with a serious stern face, "Never make assumptions. Next time you are unsure, ask." That, was my present during my first week.

It made such an impression that I would always remind my temp staff or interns during their first week of work to always ask if you are unsure and we would help. It's a gentle reminder to myself to be kind to those inexperience. 

2. They are not your mother/father/friends (if that's too harsh, try being independent)

Yes, your colleagues can become your friend if you guys really clicked but corporate life is no longer like school where you have your lecturer or your friends to help you along and give you a push when you need one. When the tough gets going, you just need to suck it up and get along. 

I always had trust issues, so it's not that difficult for me not to trust and really take their words too seriously. Help isn't always gonna come as you command. So I learnt to be independent, don't ask your supervisors/colleagues brainless questions before you've asked Google. 

3. Smile like you mean it or don't

Whenever I talked about my day to my sister, I would always tell her that I'm not good with the hi-byes or small talks in the lift or ask people how's their day just for the sake of it. And she'll be like, "That's the way it it, you have to be nice if not nobody will like you." (she always says that by the way. Nobody will like you if you're like that. Only Jasper.) 

Which, is true. I don't deny I'm unapproachable. I actually feel quite sad about it myself. Sometimes I even question myself when I can't just open my mouth and say "How are you?" or "Good morning!" Then I realised, bitch just can't do that for nuts. I have to mean it when I say it. And if I don't, what's the point? 

So as much as I would I to blend in, I refuse to change the way I am just so that maybe one or two more people will like me. I have to like me for being me (#sorealsoawesome right jie?).

4. The environment shapes your mentality & behaviour

Sounds so dramatic but it's true. Three months ago, I was in a really negative environment. I feel frustrated, disappointment and hopelessness. I had always been very in-tune with my emotions so I knew that my job and the environment was affecting me even when I left work. I honestly felt like I was just going to be this office lady with no motivation or aspiration for the next 30 years of my life (assuming I was going to work in corporate for the next 30).

I mean come on, don't you feel say just reading that? 

What I'm trying to say is, never deny that your work is making you unhappy and don't find excuses to make up for your unhappiness. If you're not enjoying work, if you're growing or learning anything there, take time to decide if that job is really what you're looking for in life. Because ultimately, it would affect you as a person. 

5. Money or Passion? 

I learnt that money is ever so powerful. I hate it but I can't live without it. But through the tough times, my passion and dream to start my business kept me going and that's when I knew it's not just another daydream to get me through my day. I knew that's what I'm meant to do and I knew that's the reason why I never enjoyed corporate life. 

I'm still not quite there yet (towards my dream) but I truly believe that as long as you have passion for the things you do, you do good. 









Friday, October 30, 2015

Lookbook | That awesome jumpsuit


Okay let's do a quick time check: 26 October 2015, 10.30pm

Right now, I feel like I'm trying to complete a late assignment that's overdue real soon. Ever since I bought my new camera, I promised myself that I was going to do more lookbooks and really try to take every opportunity I have to vlog. I kind of see vlogging as a way for Jasper and I to remember the good times and reminisce as and when. ;)





Time Check: 30 October 2015, 11.04pm 

Post was incomplete the other day. Forgot what I ended up doing, but I have a strong feeling I went to the kitchen for some seaweed shaker fries takeout. Who could resist? I know this year hasn't end just yet, but just thinking about it makes me sad. I don't want it to end so quickly. It really has been quite a revelation this year. So many things has happened. I felt happiness, sadness, moodiness, negativity, fear, hope, positivity and gratitude... I feel like sharing and giving so much but it's like time has always caught up with me and eventually won the game of "whose done more?". 

I'll be doing more "check-ins" on my blog from now on, just because I think it's a great way to track what I've been up to, my reflections and just thoughts on certain things that pops up there and then. It's personal and hopefully we could connect better. (ET finger pointing with you) 

Also, I'm feel apologetic to let you guys know that there won't be a October Monthly Favorites on my Youtube channel. I promised myself that I would at least have a monthly favorites video, but I'm still trying out a couple of products so I'm pushing it back. But! There will be a sephora haul coming up! 

Sunday, October 25, 2015

Lookbook | Midi Skirt


Time Check: 25 October 2015, 9.07pm

Contrary to what I thought about October, it has passed amazingly quickly. Which, of course meant that I was surprised in a good way. Recently I realised that I'm the kind of person that would very much like to have a deadline to anything that matters. It just gives me something to look forward to, knowing there's an end to things rather than a open "deadline". So you can say I prefer a 'yes or no' question rather than a open-ended one. Just like when we were in school. I prefer to cut to the chase. 

This post is going to be a pretty long one I suspect. Just because I haven't been posting much here and I always like to have a quick catch-up on what's happening in my life at this point of time. So here goes... This month has been about mainly two thing: 1. Starting my shop 2. Choosing our future home 

Having a full-time job, I've just really been struggling to maintain my energy level when I get home to work on my online shop. And of course, progress has been slow and sometimes I tend to doubt myself if I could really do it. But Jasper would always remind me that it's okay to start slow but at least you're starting. So that's comforting and motivating. 

Today we went to choose the unit where our future home would be. It's a happy and sad thing because we got our second first choice. Did you get it? It meant it wasn't our first choice. But it's okay, home is where your heart is and anywhere is fine with Jasper. 

Okay, that's about it. 


I always find myself gravitating towards pretty skirts and heels over tops and when I went on to lulus.com.. no surprise there. Also, I'm absolutely in for the navy greens and blues so when I saw this midi skirt, I knew it belongs to my wardrobe. Well, part of the reason for being so sure about you is because the color compliments tan skin tone!


Part of what's fun about styling is you really get to understand your body better and know what fits and what doesn't through experimenting with different colors and cuts. Sometimes pieces seemed to look awkward on me but I know that it's all about proportion so I just winked it and try to pull them off!


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Sunday, October 11, 2015

Lookbook | Boyfriend Jeans Again


Contrary to the usual photos I posted both on my blog and my Instagram, I'm actually pretty smiley. I'm not sure why I'm picking this up and sharing it with you all but I just feel that we choose what we want others/the public to see when they see our photos on social media platforms. 

A public persona is one thing but the genuine personality that exudes from a person could be entirely different. I believe there's many sides of a person. A side that only shows around their family. A side that only your lover will see and perhaps another side of you would show up in front of your friends. 

Let's just take me for an example. Unlike my somewhat 'why you always look so unfriendly/unhappy/angst' face, I'm actually quite friendly and nice once you get to know me and talk to me. (i don't usually smile in my ootds cuz my cheeks will fly up the roof if i did. so pardon me kay.)

Okay, that's that for a little side talk. 


Did I already mention that I'm a serious repeat outfit offender? Okay, but now you know. I pulled out my boyfriend jeans again yesterday cuz it's easy to look 'cool' in them. (insert winking smiley)

It's been kind of a thing nowadays that Jasper and I would wake up mid-day, doll ourselves up and head out for brunch. (nothing fancy. could be just the usual $3.50 laksa) But I have to say we went to Rocky Master to try their laksa for $9.90. Erm, it's safe to say we're going back to our $3.50 next week. 

Then usually after brunch, we'd explore the area and take photos. Usually we really don't take that long to get a couple of nice shots before we continue to walk around. (we definitely trying to get out of our comfort zone to explore around for good lookbook spots) 



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Top: Mango
Jeans: Forever 21
Heels: ALDO - im in lurve


Monday, October 5, 2015

LOOKBOOK | LACE GAME


Honestly, I didn't think I'd be this excited for this lookbook. This outfit was unexpected last Sunday. I was actually intending to was a floral dress which had become too cute for me now and I had to change out. 

I bought this lace top on the second floor of Bugis Street and I was battling with the lady (nicely) and with myself on whether I should buy this top. Why I would not buy this on usual days - 1. off-shoulder top  2. it has lace  3. i just didn't think i could pull it off. 

But of course, after I put it on, hmm~ not so bad after all! 




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Sunday, September 27, 2015

Lookbook | Black & White


Last weekend, despite the haze, Jasper and I went out to take the Monochrome Lookbook that's currently up on my Youtube channel. Watch the short clip below! 


Pictures below are some shots we took as and when we filmed. 

These looks are recreation of what I've wore previously. I'm a total criminal for repeating outfits. 
I wanna put in it a lookbook to sum up my usual black outfits so here it is. 




Saturday, September 26, 2015

JASPER'S BIRTHDAY / NEW HEELS


Time Check: 26 September 2015, 11.31pm

I have so much to update you guys on my blog. So many things are happening!

Let's start with Jasper's birthday that was last weekend. We went to Kushin Bo to have Japanese buffet. The highlight of the buffet was snow crab and we tried to eat as much as we can. I don't think I took any photos of the buffet but snippets will be up on a vlog soon!

In short, they have a good variety of food but we mostly hit on the snow crab (ate them with all ten fingers) and the sashimi. The chocolate was also the highlight of the dinner. 

Also, I purchased this Aldo laced-up heels on a whim. It costs $159. A little scream crying out from my wallet that day but I love it! 



Saturday, September 19, 2015

Lookbook | Black Dress Nude Heels


Time Check: 19th September 2015, 12.24pm

I looked backed at my blog archive for 2014 and realised I've had 82 entries last year and 19 this year. Bad girl Lydia. You can do better than that. Also, I realised how much I missed my long hair! So I've just been reminiscing on the past where I had "long and luscious" hair. Hahaha.


The laced-up heels was honestly, honestly a impulsive splurge on a Thursday night after work. I was battling between the black and the nude pair and decided to go with the nude cuz it made my legs look leaner.


Monday, September 14, 2015

Sunday Brunch


Time check: 14 September 2015, 6.56pm

Today was bad. Sinus hit like a movie star since morning until 3pm for me.

Anyways, last Sunday's babe plan to go to the beach was a no-go. And of course it's because of the haze. So we went for brunch instead at Jimmy Monday. Had the Berries Pancake, the food looked appealing but I'm not sure I'll go back just for the pancakes. Maybe for the all-day breakfast next time? 

Our usual no-smile shot just for me. Thanks babes. 



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Keeping it real with unedited photos for Life posts. 

Photo Credits: 
Christy @christyfrisbee
Adele @axdelwen

Saturday, September 12, 2015

Lookbook | Switching it up


Time Check: 12 September 2015, 7.17pm

I'm so glad to be back!! Buying the camera honestly makes me so motivated to use it to take photos and make videos. 

I feel like I matured a lot more over the past few months and I've realised a few things. 

The situation you put yourself in almost dictates how you feel about yourself. 

This is a little complicated to explain but there was a drastic difference about how I feel about myself before and after I changed my job. I was really negative about myself previously and I felt like nothing I planned to do is going to work out in the end. But now, it's the complete opposite. Which is a good thing! 

So bottom line, choose to be in a happy place and a position where you could feel good about yourself. 



Recently I've been really into pulling over a long vest no matter what I wear, be it a casual t-shirt or a spagetti top. It switches up the casual vibe to a more formal/office appropriate outfit. Okay, maybe the  slit on my skirt is a tad to high for office but I could still get away with it.  (hushh...)

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Friday, September 11, 2015

Life #5


Hello!

As you can obviously tell from the photo, I'm really excited about my new camera! I finally bought a new camera! Yeah! I bought Samsung NX3300 from the IT show last week at Suntec City. Thanks to my babe, Rini, for telling me about the IT show. :)

The camera I used to have is NX3000 which Jasper bought for me as a birthday present. I was so sad when I spoilt it back in San Fran. But it's okay. All's good. I bought a replacement.

Just wanna give a little casual shoutout to this new baby.


For obvious reasons, I really love the NX3000 and now the NX3300. It's the best decision I've made to tell Jasper that I really wanna buy the NX3000 and he eventually bought it for me on my birthday. 

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In other news, I changed my job. That was another best made decision of 2015. I'm at a much happier place, which is all that matters. I also picked up sewing, which I consider a baby step towards starting my own business. 

Also, in other news, I'm planning to create new content for my Youtube channel which is really exciting. It's something I always see myself doing but yet, always putting off the idea somehow. But I'm really working on it this time. 

Consistency is always an issue for me when it comes to my blog and I really work on that as well. 

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Wouldn't be this happy without the encouragement of Jasper who is with me every step of the way and my critic when I get too fickle about my decisions, my sister who is always my critic but wants me to be happy no matter what and Clarinda, who critics me gently if not, not at all. Muacks!

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Friday, August 7, 2015

Lookbook | Monochrome


Time Check: 7th August 2015, 11.00pm

I'm obsessed with Pomelo. Why haven't I jump on the bandwagon sooner? 

I couldn't be more in love with this camisole. It's free-size, so it runs a little big on me. But other than the loose sides, I'm pretty satisfied with my purchase.